These are the reasons I'm depressed and angry at the world.

These are the reasons I'm depressed and angry at the world... you should listen to Metal while you read this...

Because nobody cares about anybody.

Everybody is shallow, including me.

There's not one honest person in the world.

Lightsabers don't really exist. Neither do laser guns

Air is God’s way of addicting us to life.

Nobody loves hideous monsters, no matter how heartwarming they may be.

Mary Shelly was a stupid bitch. So was Hans Christian Anderson.

The word “Fuck” is an acronym for “Fornication Under Consent of the King” and people use it
as a word of damnation as well as a word of emotionless sex, making it a so-called “Bad word”. As well as the word “Shit” is a derivative of the Gaelic-Celtic words “Shyte” and “Shat” which are the actual words for “Defecation” and “Defecated” and people say it’s a so-called “Bad word”.

When people tell you to be politically correct and say “Testicles” instead of “Nuts” or “Balls”. I find the word “Testicles” to be more vulgar than “Nuts” or “Balls”.

When people frown on “Curse words” when they’re just words.

When Liberal Hollywood portrays meaningless sex as more of a part of life than making love, and Marriage as a trap, rather than a holy union of two souls.

When Republican senate votes that homosexuals have the right to be married, JUST because it appeases and shuts up the liberals, and when marriage is a Christian union of two DIFFERENT sexes. I’d expect it from liberals, but not Republicans.

When people freak out when you say “That’s so gay.” About something that’s stupid, saying that it hurts their feelings. Well, homosexuals, your being gay hurts MY feelings, so fuck you, you’re gay.(And fuck you, Hilary Duff, I say what I want, you’re gay, too.)

How Family Guy has gotten more liberal and more stupid since Season 3.

How Liberal Hollywood portrays Conservatives and Republicans as; A.) The same thing; B.) Belligerently stupid and racist; and C.) The “Bad guys”. When those are all traits of blatant liberalism.

When you give up on an argument because the person you were arguing with is an unreasonable idiot, and they boast that they “Shut you up”.

How people think they’re really depressed when something miniscule happens in their life. Such as being dumped by somebody.

How 13+ year olds who are “Dating” say they’re “In-love” with each other when they’ve been dating for 15+ days.

When people use the word “Guestimate” which isn’t even a word.

When people decide they don’t like something just because they heard someone else’s opinion/lie/misinformation about it. I.E. “I don’t like Ketchup, because Mary-Beth said that it has low doses of Potassium-Cyanide in it.”

When people expect their DVR or TiVo to skip through live TV when they aren’t behind on time or in a recording or On Demand selection.

When some Christians believe that fast-paced music and sharp leads are “The DEVIL!”

When Elementary school teachers tell their students to tell their Parents who to vote for, and bitch about how Christians apparently try to shove the republican vote down people’s throats.

When people think you’re either a freak or you have some sort of major disease when you say you’ve never been kissed romantically, and you’re almost 18 years old.

How everybody hates America, when we bail other countries out of their own fuckups (France, England, Holland, Switzerland, Finland, Haiti, Africa, Mexico, etc.)

When “African”-Americans bitch about how their ancestors (Who were very distantly related to them) were enslaved by the “White man” for 300 years, when they were also freed by a white man, and a senate, congress, and jury of white men. And how Irish and Scotsmen and women worked in indentured slavery for close to 700 years, about 100 years before the Africans were even discovered. Try being enslaved by Englishmen who had a right to kill you for no reason. At least you HAD some rights. You probably haven’t even heard us bitch about it until just now.

How black people call themselves “African-Americans” when their family bloodline has been here for 10 generations. Listen, just because you’re black doesn’t mean you’re African. It means you have African genes, and skin color. Just because I’m white with red hair and blue eyes doesn’t mean I’m Irish or Scottish, I have Irish and Scottish genes and skin color, but you don’t seen me going around, calling myself “European-American”, do you?
The only REAL African-Americans are ones who have come to America from Africa in THIS century, and have taken citizenship in both countries.

When a friend comes over, spends then night, then doesn’t want to do ANYTHING the next day. So all you end up doing is sitting around until one of their parents comes to pick them up.

When saying “I love you” doesn’t mean shit to whomever you said it to. No matter how much you mean it.

When the only girl you like is still “In love” with their ex.

When you want to play a PC game, but the only PC you can play it on is being hogged by one of your siblings. And when they get off the computer they leave their windows open and you know they’re going to yell at you if you close them.

When you know you want to do something, but you can’t think of anything to do.

When you don’t say “I love you” again after the first time, cause you’re afraid the recipient doesn’t want to hear it.

When you stop caring about the little things, like Valentines Day, because you don’t have anybody to celebrate it with.

When Valentines Day becomes Single Awareness Day.

When you want something to eat, cause you’re hungry, but nothing in your fridge looks appetizing.

“Save the whales.” enough said.


That’s really all I have to say. When I can think of more things that grind my gears about Earth, I’ll edit this post.

Conflict

It seems as though everyone I know has some deep emotional problem.
I try to help as best I can, not knowing the consequences of being wrapped up in things.
I think I want to be, though. It’s a way to help; a way to an end that doesn’t fold out with disaster.
And a way to keep the peace and to sometimes end the things that should be ended.
But I fear that some of them will end in disaster. That nobody can be happy without the thing that should end.
I just want it all to be over, with no consequences or heartbreak.
And I know they want that as well.
I’m going through something with two of my best friends right now.
I’m not exactly caught in the middle of things because one party considers the situation to be over.
But I feel like I am because the other party wants it to be over, but won’t let it be over.
I want to help her, because I don’t want her to hurt. But all I can think to say to her is just going to make her angry with me, even though I know for a fact its right.
I don’t know what to do anymore.

Myspace message @ David about bulletin!

Can you count your serious relationships on one hand?
I hope to be able to always only need one finger! Ima comment all these, startinggggggg NOW!

Name something great that happened today?
I called Reyna, and talked to her for an hour and change -ZOMGZ an HOUR!? Your parents LET you do that!?

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing right now?
umm....... the store? Really!? No way!

What's the last song you listened to?
"Hero" - Skillet *Yelling at the top of my lungs* "I need a hero to save me now
I need a hero, save me now I need a hero to save my life!!!"

This time last year, were you single?
yup

Do you wear makeup everyday?
I have NEVER worn make-up. Oh really? I seem to remember you....never wearing make up :P no worries ;)

Who is someone you'll always hate?
There is nobody that I hate. I dislike some people very severely, but I don't hate people Oh? Cause I hate Al Gore, and Obama.

If your ex asked you back out right now what would you say?
"Uh, two things about that.....
1: I am very happily taken by the most wonderful young lady ever.
2: Last time you asked me out, we dated for two days." "And you kinda smell, when was the last time you showered? Oh.... the day we broke up?.... you don't say..."

Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
A few people, yeah Liiiikkkeee um... I dunno... YOUR FAMILY!?

Do you have any siblings?
2 siblings. one older brother, one younger sister. + like 3 non-biological siblings

Do any of your friends dislike each other?
yup =D Woooohhhh!

What are you doing right now?
watching White Christmas with my family Don't break your face open!...I dunno what that had to to with White Christmas...

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
I would hope that my girlfriend does Well, yeah, that's kind of an obvious answer.

What happened at 9:00 am today?
I was sick, in bed. Pre-candy sickness, your body was punishing you for something you hadn't eaten yet.

What's the first thing you did when you woke up this morning?
tossed my cookies...... =/ Great way to start Christmas! "Yay! Yule Vomit!"

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
long as they don't call me nasty names for no reason, I couldn't care less By the way, I'm going to blog this....

Are you happy with the way things are going?
overall, mostly Yeah, you got a girlfriend, half a life, great stats on an Alien campaign in AVP2. Pretty good life so far!

Are your lips chapped at the moment?
nope Gotta keeps thems lips silky smooth! Or the crackage monster shows up and ruins your face!

Do you currently like anyone?
yup
I love her, too Awwwwww, I may throw up...

Do you have a best friend?
yup Haha yeah like several! Be specific! I wanna be mentioned in one of you bulletins!

What does your last outgoing text say?
no texting Also! No calling and no internet activity! But at least you have a camera!

Have you kissed someone more than 20 times in 09?
yup Eeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!

Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone for over an hour?
Reyna <3 color="#ff0000">Hey! You mentioned this earlier!

How many people of the opposite sex do you actually trust?
There's a few, actually As long as they aren't your sister(s) or mother(s).

What are you doing this weekend?
hanging out with my family, getting ready to leave for the other side of the state on monday I don't think I have a snappy comment for this one...

Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?
nope Holy crap! Seriously!?

How do you know the last male you texted?
no texting @6 questions above!

Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
yuppers Eeeewwwwww.....

Did your last kiss take place on a bed?
nah Hahaha! When I read this question I was a little worried you had said yes! Hahaha!

Are some of your friends so close that you consider them family?
A few, yes =D MEZ! But I still need to be mentioned directly, with name and everything...

What made you start liking the person you like right now?
well, I noticed that she was cute when I first met her. Disregarded that fact entirely, though, because I've always thought that the prettier girls are evil. Hanging out with her, I realized she wasn't evil, and allowed myself to sort of like her. ALL pretty girls are evil, but it's a NECESSARY EVIL!

What does your mom call you?
David, or Son. +Dip, turkey, doof, goofball, dork, fail, noob, emo kid, stinky... Shall I go on?

Insides

... I just feel different around the winter season, like my insides are upside down but my heart's in my throat.
Like I can't feel my liver or my stomach.
... Kinda like I'm awake but somehow asleep.
I feel like I did when we had the pitfire, but somehow different.
... A more hollow feeling, like I love where my life's at but it's like I'm in a white room with no door or windows. Or people.
... I feel bad for LaVella.
She's going through a tougher time than I am.
... The man who's supposed to love her is ignoring her, even mad at her. That's not fair of him.
She's a good girl.
... Maybe we're broken, like we don't work anymore for some inexplicable reason.
Like all we are is a clock with no hands. Just numbers.
... I just want to hop in a car and take a road trip, and listen to nothing but indie music. And figure out why I feel badly.

Listening to my heartbeat.

I become randomly active for a short but rapid time, and I deliberately try to run out of breath, just to listen to my heartbeat, to make sure I'm still alive.

Not too long ago something amazing happened for my brother from another mother, David--The one who loses trouser buttons and wears runner's tights--.

And when something like that happens for one of my friends I get excited for them, and I want them to have everything I never was able to.

Some of them get annoyed when I do that, because they think I shouldn't be, because it's not happening to me. I'm just happy for them is all. I was really never able to have that one something because of my predicament. Even though it's basically what I've always dreamed.

I had one something, that didn't end well. And quite frankly at my age and level of experience in this I don't think I can handle another, a newer and a better something, because I've never really had one before. I'd be incredibly awkward and I'd be the worst ever. So I basically believe I'm doomed to be something-less forever.

Maybe it won't be so bad.

Blog about Alex cause I haven't blogged about her yet!

This is my blog about Alex Adams! She's an awesome, beautiful, fiery, hispanic girl! She recently got accepted to MSU! Which is awesome.

This blog is a little awkward, cause I've never blogged about anyone in specific.

But I want to blog about her cause she's bad ass.

Words are for loosers, I prefer my conversations with a good hard slap.

I'm beginning to think I'm too well spoken for my age.
When I was younger I would read a lot of College-level books, and if I didn't understand a word I would look it up in a dictionary or online. That led to a very large vocabulary in the long run. The other day I went to type the word "Long" and messed up my fingers and they got in a jumble and did sort of a jig, and I ended up with "omg" and I remembered what I've been saying for a while:
"Abbreviations are killing my I.Q. and screwing up my vocabulary. I'm tired of computer speak."
I haven't posted a blog in a while, that means life's been well, sort of.
I was talking to my new darling friend LaVella last night, and I let a little of my depressed side leak out. And I told her I didn't want her to see this side of me, because I wanted at least one friend to see me as a happy, funny, carefree person. She said "Tell me about you." and I told her what was bothering me. LaVella is an excellent listener.
I love my new friend, the best part about it is it's in the best way. It's not romantic or anything, it's a normal kind of "Friend-love", that's all. In fact I'm totally incapable of romanticism whatsoever since the "Ariel days" as I fancy calling them, she left me hollow with one resounding "Drip" every once in a while. I got over that in a week or two without her though. I don't blame Ariel, I blame myself, I got a little too infatuated but I'll save that story for another blog. Speaking of Ariel, she recently came back to our friendship, and it seems things have been going quite well for her. She says she's changed and I see it in what she tells me. Hopefully our friendship will last this time.
I keep having these visions of being with somebody, I don't know who I'm apparently "Being" with but I know they're nice daydreams. I keep thinking somebody will let me fall totally in love with them and they'll fall for me as well, but so far nothing. Maybe in the future, when I try harder.